MY SPOKEN HEART
I speak my heart
Can’t live with hurt
So am about
To let it all out.
I can’t hold it
Like I can’t keep it
All inside
Is it dark or what
Can I still hold it
Or have I lost it.
Am barred
Can’t speak
Listen to my heart beat
And when you no longer can
I’ll tell that it’s gone
As it flows through the feeble connection
I can’t stop the want and need for affection
All I hear in my head is ‘FOOL’
When I know without love I’ll never be full
Gets me thinking, why am I even sad?
When life has been nothing but a springing flower bud
All I say is I wish spring gets done with
And let me see every flower in my life blossom
Heat of hate
The heat of the hate of the demon scorching sun
It gets me letting go my rags, I think I’ll go mad
I can’t believe am still holding on
The letting go of the giving in
The key to this virtual house of mine
Not everyone allowed to go in it
That’s when I realized you are not just anyone
You’re a thief
You moved in as the wind
I gave you no key and passwords to move in
You damn stole your way in
I didn’t want you there
I damn wanted no one there
To sit and boss around
Because you know you stole it all
Convince yourself I can’t take it back
I got your back but watch out coz one of these days dude,
I’ll damn get away from you!
The cry of a silent woman
If I could
I would
I’d just shout
STOP! STOP! He is a beast!
I see his eyes hunger
He is a prowling lion
His hands are ugly claws
His eyes bloodshot
Making every nerve of my body jump
But I still can’t
Just can’t
I remember when he used to smile
And I would smile back
When I was innocent
When I was pure
But on one ugly night
He took it all away
Now I’m lost
Can’t remember where I got lost
In the hands of a prowling lion
He deceives with a smile!
Don’t laugh at his jokes!
This is all I want to show
But I say it quietly
Enough!
I’ve had enough!
Stop lying you deceiver
You black demon with horns!!
But I look around
Everyone is still and calm
For I do not speak
I only shout within me
I ache within
He looks at me
With now hateful eyes
The feeling is mutual
I despise him
Despise myself
Despise nature that allowed this happen
Am sweating profusely, swearing intensely
Boiling with anger
But outside am only an ordinary
Silent lady
Succumbing to the present troubles
That no one dares to care at
But I realize its all in vain
If I can’t he won’t stop
So I will talk
To save the angels
From the black headed demon
I’ve been silent giving the cry
Of a silent woman.
But no longer, if he dares,
I will scream
I will tell the world
The unfortunate disaster stricken
To save the innocence restore purity
Uphold goodness
An urge to all angels
All ladies with dignity
Don’t be so calm
Or yet too civilized
We all know too well
This is no civilized world
When you are in trouble
When you can’t kick
When you can’t prick
When you can’t bite
When you can’t hurt
Scream
And I’ll be there
A silent woman
Saving womanhood.
